Good Feeling

I was on the beltway on Sunday driving over to see my Ma and I had a weird feeling, but it was a good one. There was nothing in particular that was great, but there was a convergence of many little things. The traffic was movings smoothly. The song on my CD was good (South Central Rain) but just good enough to make me feel that way and not think too much. I had gas. In the tank of the car darn it. The sun was out. It was June. Then I noticed all the trees. And I realized: I have a good job, I live in the richest society in the history of the world, I am as healthy as a horse, no one close to me is sick or ill right now, I have family that cares about me...it was just a rush of feeling-thoughts that occured for about 12 seconds. I have not done a very good job of reconstructing it here but you know what I mean. Then I began to think about what I had just thought about. And then, to paraphrase Lou Reed, it flickered for a moment, and then vanished and was gone. Just like a lightning bug. One of my three wishes would be to have the ability to live in that moment at will, because that is a good feeling.